My dad travels a lot for his company. However, he hasn’t had business in OKC for several years…until this week, the week his first grandson is in the OKC NICU. I don’t think that’s a coincidence. After a quick breakfast at Panera, Papa Mike held baby Finn for about 45 minutes…soothing him so much that his alarms went off because his breathing became too relaxed. Between pats on Finn’s little diapered bottom, Dad told me about a vision, or thought he had yesterday. The family (Rosells and Armstrongs) were all surrounding Finn, praying for him. Then Jesus was there and we all stepped back, allowing Jesus to hold him. This reminded my dad of a verse in Mark, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these” (10:14). I love the idea of Jesus paying special attention to my little one. As I said yesterday, sometimes we feel we’ve been forgotten by God; like He hasn’t heard our prayers (or yours). Perhaps we’ve all felt this way at one point. I just have to trust that He’s bigger than all this. His plan is bigger.
I received a package in the mail yesterday, the contents of which I’ve waited several weeks for. Inside was a necklace with Finn’s name on it from The Vintage Pearl, a Tulsa company specializing in personalized jewelry (Thanks, Emily and Paul!). I’m not very much into jewelry, and there are very few things I’d want to flaunt around my neck, but his name is definitely one of them. I’m so proud of our little fighter. The pearl hanging above his name reminds me that although the oyster is ugly and rough on the exterior, there is a precious, unique jewel hidden inside. Maybe our situation mimics the oyster and the pearl.
His head circumference is down another .5 cm today. The doctors are happy it’s going slowly, so the “plates” in his skull have time to fuse correctly. Joey bottle-fed him again and it was a success. We saw him without a tube in his mouth for the first time while they were changing it out…love those lips!
Praying for another smooth day, for leg movement, for decreased swelling, for successful feeds to get us out of here sooner, for a good night-time nurse, and for strength and endurance along the way.