Dr. Stanley gave us good news at our 12 week ultrasound on Monday that this little one appears to be healthy thus far. I never once had a “good appointment” while pregnant with Finn. Honestly; just about every appointment I left in tears. I bled continuously from week 6-17, went to the ER twice, found out Finn had Spina Bifida at the gender reveal appointment, was told he had a chest mass shortly after, hydrocephalus in his brain worsened with every ultrasound…the saga continues.
I haven’t been physically sick this pregnancy; just hormonal, sensitive, rude and exhausted. Sorry, Joey. Sorry, clients.
Do you know what a miracle it is that we’re walking around, breathing at a steadied pace and functioning efficiently as humans? There are so many miracles that have to take place for a child to be born–much less to be born healthy. And not all parents or children are afforded this miracle. I am so thankful for these everyday wonders this time around. So, so thankful for this gift of life in my tummy.
I thought I’d be a basket-case with another pregnancy–paranoid and frantic. I admit, it has been challenging not to worry about this child’s health, but the Lord has been so gracious to help me trust His goodness, regardless of the outcome. Finn is disabled…and he’s a rock star. I’ve been tempted to believe I deserve a healthy baby after what happened to Finn. Oh, but this is such deception. I don’t deserve anything. Any good and perfect gift is from God. And I think the “imperfect” gifts are from Him too.
Will you pray with us for the health of this child? Due on our 8 year anniversary: June 30th! 🙂 And pray for my personal health to carry it to term? Oh, and for our hearts to be steadfast and not fearful. There is so much risk and uncertainty in having a child–this we are well aware of. Thanks, friends!